2012 Reflection + 2013 Resolutions | My Thoughts

It's New Years Eve right now and I'm sad to say that I'm not ending it with a bang. I was invited to a party but my mum refuses to let me attend, for extremely silly reasons none of which I'll bore you with. Mainly she just doesn't trust me which confounds me because I have always been way too mature  for my age. It feels incredibly uncomfortable to still be attached to my mother. But thats not what this post is about. I want to take some time to reflect on this past year and wonder about what the next one holds for me.

If I were to describe this year in one word it would something along the lines of miserable. Now, although I've never been clinically diagnosed as depressed (because I'm too afraid to tell anyone), I believe that I am. And in no way do I want any of you to think that I'm seeking attention by telling you this, I just think that its a significant part of my life that you need to know about in order to understand who I am. The condition runs in my family so its no surprise to me that I may have it as well. For now, I'm okay dealing with it myself but maybe one day I will be strong enough to tell someone.

So taking all that in account, I have been very sad this year. Many things have gone wrong. I've had many boy troubles, like the average teenage girl. I've had issues with friends, family, and confidence. I've just overall haven't felt very good about myself the majority of this year.

The worst thing that happened this year I would say occurred at my friends birthday party. While walking home from a restaurant, we paused while crossing a bridge to take a group photo. I left my bag on what looked like a flat, safe surface (it was super dark) but it turns out it was the railing of the bridge. One of my friends accidentally elbowed my bag and it fell into the water. We spent a good hour attempting to fish it out and once we did, needless to say, all my things were ruined. My camera and my phone where the things I was most sad about. I've since replaced my phone but a camera is too expensive for me to be able to buy again.

This was the night, and it happened right after this photo was taken

These are the wonderful people in my class

So that was the low point, but there has been one particularly good thing that has happened this year. High Schools normally have a student government, student council, ASB class (the name varies depending on the school). I'm sure you all know what I'm talking about. At my school, we call it ASB and Spring semester of last year I decided to try to join for the upcoming new school year. You have to go through this interview process and they choose the best people and on some miracle they chose me!  When I found out I was delighted and it since has been the best decision I have ever made. The people in the class are wonderful and I've met so many new friends and learned so many new things! It's gradually making me feel better.

But now this year is practically over and I'm mentally preparing myself for 2013. Like most everyone else, I'm praying that this will be my best year yet and I thought I would share some of my resolutions with you! I write down a few every year but my goal isn't to achieve all of them. If I get a few crossed off, then I'm happy.

• Get a Job- I need to start saving for college and it would be nice to have some spending money. and once I do get a job, I need to open a bank account.
• Get my driving license- doesn't really need an explanation.
• Concentrate on my grades- I'm a fairly decent student but this past semester my grades haven't been up to scratch. I've just been a bit too lazy.
• Look into colleges- it's time to start deciding where I'm going to apply.
• Study for my SAT's- for those who don't have these, its a huge High School exit exam that also determines which colleges you are able to get into.
• Worry less about things that are out of my control and work on the ones that are- I tend to stress ALOT about EVERYTHING and if I don't stop this soon I'm sure to have an aneurysm. 
• Meet new people- I want a friendship like Zoe and Louise :)
• And lastly, keep up this blog! In another post I'm planning on explaining exactly why I made it.

And the very last thing I want to mention is this photo I found when scrolling through my tumblr dashboard. It's a very good idea for something to do throughout the year and I'm definitely going for it! Wow this post is much longer than I expected it to be but hey, what can you do? Happy New Year darlings, I really do wish everyone the best! I'm off to make my jar :)

Who am I? | An Introduction

Hugs to you, darlings! Wow this is my first blog post, full of fantastic opportunity. I'm afraid this may be a little dull because I'll just be talking about myself, but I promise I'm not vain! I just feel like you all should know me a bit better. I feel a little silly though, because I'm just talking to myself.

Being a goof in my bathroom

Well, I suppose I'll just get on with it! My actual name is Anna (pronounced ah-nah), yet my good pals call me Anya. It's just one of those things. I am currently 15 years old, turning 16 on January the 14th. I'm a High School Sophomore, a fairly shy and quiet girl, lover of all things fashion, and one day desiring to move to England. Thats about it really, if there's anything else you darlings will ask but for now those are the essentials!